with all that truth
lunging at it
trying to chase me

and with me. and smoke inside me.
the inhale stings
like the way he touches me

when i wish i were him
and i wrap it all up to redemption
while i sit and stare to the city lights

it makes me know,
just know,
what im missing

those things i want to blame him
for taking
like the dream catcher in the corner of his room

is a net
and im going down by it
i see it.

eyes open and raw
like i've been staring too long

to get him to understand what sits behind him
the same words he's saying to forget
like im going to remember

so tomorrow he'll want to cuddle close
and i'll whisper those things like redemption
like the word's complicated.